Thursday, February 17, 2005

One of those days

Sometimes pain is good, it reminds you that you're alive. Then there are time times when pain makes you wish you were dead, for chronic pain sufferers those are tough days. Things go wrong and you feel like you're not only fighting things in the world around you, but you also have this battle with something you have no control over within yourself. I know most people don't have a clue as to what I deal with, and knowing this makes it a little easier to forgive people's attitudes.... To a point! It's hard not to want to pack it in, give up, just walk away from everything on "Those Days", and even staying sane take an incredible effort. Sometime you need to walk away and leave things for a bit, and then there are also times to give these people a kick in the rear. Distinguishing between these becomes even more difficult when what you're dealing with invokes enormous amounts of anger and frustration in the first place. This is the type of day I'm having today, I don't know whether I'm coming or going.